" distance makes the heart something something "

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signing off for a little while. traveling around the bay area and eventually down to la-la land. photographing, collaboration, walking around the old haunts, and making new ones.

going to let my manufactured bklyn anxieties slip away, and rediscover my mellow. sometimes when we don't take breaks for the mind, body, spirit, constitution, we may find ourselves years later with such a sense of regret and what-ifs.

i have long stretches of time where i'm living in a what-could-it-be-like, so i'm happy to have a new opportunity to take this time off. as per usual, hit me up with any questions, concerns, comments, or suggestions. i'll be on the road, and though the road is long, it is still contactable.

tonight's homework:

light a candle, sing a song, shift your comfort zone to the side, move on.

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" when the time comes around "

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new variations on old themes. the smell of the pacific ocean as it hits the coast; the waft and chemical composition always bright, salty, fresh, and invigorating.

i find myself back in my childhood home, and it is as brilliant as it is overwhelmingly nostalgic. you can definitely feel time shifting; the screws tighten, but the pressure is released.

the body eases, the spine softens, and the world goes watercolor.

think of the best sensation, the most eloquent poem become a breeze through your soul. apply it to your everyday, and lean into this breeze. let it become you, and you become it.

then move forward with new eyes, and focused direction.

tonight's homework:

nostalgia, and ice cream.

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" full muster "

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you have a voice, a stake in this world, and with little or great effort, can change the trajectory of the pendulum.

a little bit of active thought and decisive action is enough to cause a ripple in the water. your voice will be heard at great distances though you are not present.

the tears, sweat, blood, and mental weight all lift off of the shoulders. the bells ring loud and true; this is an alarm.

what are you going to do today to make it a better place?

tonight's homework:

education, realization, alter the future for the greater good.

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" one-hitter "

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how rare times come around where we are outside of ourselves, outside of time, and yet seeing with a pure clarity? that there is such a radiance in the chaotic semblance of reality. that there is a chaos, and a certain quite opposite or in the least alternate quality of beauty of which becomes the basis for a version of reality as of yet before unchecked.

to know that you have been affected and in the best possible way, changed forever for the better. to know and understand that there was a time before this, and now you are in the time afterwards. 

and just for a moment, a glimpse into the infinite. one devoid of harm or illness, where music originated, and the first leaning of knowledge developed.

one true still calm filled with a complete understanding of the universe; everything finds its groove and nestles into the shallows.

tonight's homework:

pass the dutchie on the left-hand side.

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" occasional early riser "

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morning time golden sunlight spilling into my room my face full flush with sleep eyes squinted open eyes flickering with the beams full force and now i'm awake to the fresh air to the birds song singing through the flutter of the leaves and the voices along the street are few but loud.

the wind is caressing my face my body my legs pumping and cranking upon this mechanical marvel zooming along at 20 mph to my left the cars all parked ahead the lane is all clear like able sky with no breeze on the right a feral park already awoken for hours.

the only sound is this golden light over the entire plaza and no one is around but us in the sun where the few faces are smiling and the top of the park is so empty but serene and quiet and and and as with some special times when you are about of sorts or in other sorts you feel like you ay be tumbling down and all around but in reality everything falls into place.

tonight's homework:

locate a source of happiness and be thankful.

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" it looms over "

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you must do your best to focus now. the odds are not necessarily against your favor, but when you take on a slight hesitation, or have manifest a doubt in yourself and your talents in the slightest, it festers and becomes a heavy burden.

there are numerous individuals on this earth, and yes a lot of them are successful, and yes a lot of them are beautiful in every way beyond belief and comparison, and yes they live lives well and beyond comprehension...but who cares?

why let outside forces and third parties dictate at all the arc of your trajectory? why let yourself down due to a side-by-side? there are bright lights in your talents, gifts which only you have the ability to bestow on the world. 

it's completely true. the world is a better place for you being in it, but you must interact with it. you must believe in your abilities and qualities, then make the best effort you've got. think of one thing you'd like to be better at. now think of another. and a third.

write them down, and set out a plan to overcome these supposed shortcomings. you are the best, most beautiful, most talented, most bright star in the universe, and you must discover that you are perhaps standing in your own path to success. 

tonight's homework:

give yourself a chance to do better. give someone else the chance to do better. we are all in this together, and sometimes you need to touch home base. get your ish together; it may pay off in unimaginable ways

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" mercury retrograde can suck an egg "

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there's no destiny manifest, no fear from unknown forces, no waiting to see how it all turns out. inaction, deferral, lack of responsibility? these are the things which fuel your downward spiral.

you bring your own energies to each moment, into each decision, into each interaction, so don't rest your hopes on the alignment of planets for the betterment of your existence. seek a bold path, a new way to head, far and away from horoscope eventualities and broad strokes.

this is the time foe details to be hashed, checklists to be made and boxes to be ticked. speak out loud, write concise clear notation, make moves, be aware, conscious, and honest.

there are no more avenues for excuses, only distinctions between what wastes your time, and what simple motions hold mutually beneficial outcomes. the fear and hesitation is normal, but it is now what you will do in the face of such fear and potential failure which makes you a person worth the time of day.

tonight's homework:

what can you do in the next few days to make the lives of those whom you care for a better place? have a think on that one, and then put your ideas into action.

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" spring herbs and wistfulness "

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the heart requires a nourishment, a loving enriching to fuel itself for times ahead and sometimes for times past. .

 

outside forces and distant winds, the santa anas blustering wildly, pummeling, knocking about, the tumult and the vigor. a knotted stomach and a furrowed brow.

the beauty of that day, walking through the shaded paths. who could have foreseen any calamity on the horizon. 

this was the ecology of those times, now silenced in a veiled memory, a silent pause, then a whispered prayer.

a past brought out of dappled sunlight and houseplants, collectively breathing easy. no one felt a yearning more then than now, and what a time was had. what a time.

tonight's homework:

write down five memorable moments in your life, good or bad, forwarding or stagnant, dark or bright or fondly remembered. write them down on a sheet of paper and sit with them for a few moments. those are your memories, yours alone. work your way down the list, allowing enough time to relive them just a little, then safely burn them to ash and let go of them into the loose breeze. you are free.

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" to be seen "

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be like the body of a falcon, bisecting the air with a deft sense of natural ability. raw, honest, defiant of outside forces, free.

you are a rivulet joining the wider waters, carving a path against the current. a skipping stone, the bulb stored deep within the earth and growing upwards. you are a powerful force, powered by willpower and electrical currents. bone, blood, heart, respiration.

simple steps with a purpose but no destination. forward movement with a looseness, a flexibility, a slender branch leaning into the breeze.

tonight's homework:

walk into the world, confident and self-assured. you are doing everything right today, and no one can knock your stride.

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" to catch a breath "

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standing on the eastern tower, legs aching, back breaking, lungs screaming.

i the distance, the brilliant reflection of the sun hits the wide waterway bursting it into a thousand sparkles. a water-taxi roars a dirty engine through the channel, the sound echoing off of the building which line the island.

sweat pouring down my face, i close my eyes and take it all in.

this moment, the time, the setting of another sun, my living situation, my finances, my love-life-left-looming-lingering, my heart, mind, body, soul, spirit, friends, family.

overwhelming, and completely normal, it's just another day on earth in this strange city which has held me in place, and set me free.

the moment passes, the boats toddle on by below the length of this bridge. in a flash, i am gone, coasting at 35 miles per hour.

tonight's homework:

too late. tonight is almost over, but if you are still up, exfoliate and floss before going to sleep.

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" littlebitadatboomboombap "

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none of this tip-tappin' it, no piddle-paddle fappin' it.

just that boom boom bap, boom boom du-bap,

skeedoo skeedoo skeedoo du-pow!

breeeeeeeeeeee bee bee bee bee beedoo beedoo

shhh shhh shhh shhh pshhhtaaaah.

doo bee doo bee dooo.

got it?

tonight's homework:

speak your blessing aloud, and sing your praises into the night sky.

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" get ready to take your time "

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apple-cheeked and leaning in, we are now a slice and flavor of complete.

everything plowed and tilled; all things in place.

the pint half-full at rest with the still impressed heat from calm fingers; the beads of condensation trickling down the glass meandering and in no particular hurry.

a swollen sun plumped and ample with the promise of a generous heat looms caressingly above the citified horizon.

no rush. no worries or woe. just this time, together. just the "nowness" of it all.

and we raise our draughts to the sky, then to our lips like a silent prayer.

tonight's homework:

give someone the benefit of the doubt; it's rough out there, and we need a development of trust.

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" serendipity timeslip "

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the shot was made, and someone came into full view. 

the exposure was not yet pulled, and we walked on.

the beauty of the day overpowered better judgement, and we sat in the park. a simple lunch was eaten, and conversation was shared.

i photographed once more, forgetting the first.

a perfect double exposure was made and locked; two worlds converging, speaking and breathing, telling vastly different legs of the same story.

tonight's homework:

curiosity and kindness.

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" self service "

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the most frightening part is that you don't really know where you stand. you can pick up on the non-verbal cues, sift through the data, and deconstruct the nuances of happenings and events around you. but it's hard sometimes to really know.

smiles can prove deceptive or false, scowls misrepresentative, and the many shades of gray in between. you do your best to discern the good from the not-as-good, but in general even though you have a gut feeling and hope for the best, people are very complex.

so it is up to you to make sure that you are the one who is taking the responsibility of your worldly representation to the best of your abilities. you must be the one to be honest, open, true, truthful, and well-intentioned. 

to be any less inserts more confusion into the equation, and could leave some wondering where their place in your life is. don't worry too much about it in the everyday, but temper your aloofness, and take care your heart and motivations when you are able.

tonight's homework:

practice makes perfect. nothing is perfect. seek perfection through practice.

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" sight beyond sight "

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all-the-way, love, until the end of the road. a road diverged, but the spirit is strong.

though the way is not at all times clear, i have a clarity of thought, a clarity of heart, a clarity of will.

the will to move forward, or languish, linger, laze around with you here forever.

in this fragment of this shard of this moment, here we are, with an observation which will never fade. we see right into the center of it all, and nothing is any less luminous.

tonight's homework:

take a break, catch your breath, stretch it out, give it another go.

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" lavish things "

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every chance we have to show each other our vulnerabilities, we locate that beautifully intimate pinpoint of the true Self. we see each other, into and through one another, and it's a lovely realization.

we require this sort of beauty, the sort which forwards us in our endeavors. the ones which allow us to learn more about the people in our lives and the world at large. the galaxy, the universe, the true nature of what it is we are doing here.

to know that our lives are fleeting, does this make you want a higher quality of experience? i am endlessly seeking this beauty in my own life, in my photographic work, in my personal relationships. there's no time to waste really.

we must make a great effort to be honest, brutally kind, aggressively open, and enchanting whenever possible. things come into alignment, and you have moments where you take notice. those are the moments which we must recognize, and make an attempt to multiply.

i look forward to your everything.

tonight's homework:

http://www.hulu.com/watch/333077
http://janusfilms.com/daisies/daisies_paperdolls.jpg

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" living through osmosis "

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inside, powerful thunderstorms pulse and inform the trajectory of all branches of fueled lightning throughout my body. what convergence, and what delight.

in the marrow, dense deltas stretch out their slender fractures. in the bones, elongated fluctuations find their way skirting the edges of musculature.

i am brimming with positive energies, and it powers my entirety. the day lengthens and wanes lovely, shifting at a snail's pace from deep red orange to a cascade of purple, indigo, cobalt, then blackness.

we can see in the dark and looking around at the faces gleaming in the shadows, laughing, merry, and bodies aflutter, all know that everything is going to be fantastic.

tonight's homework:

defy your instinct to be restless or lazy. get up! get out! explore! do amazing activities! bring a friend, and multiply this sense of wonder! live, long for, love, liberation.

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" je ne regrette rien "

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picking up the pace or s  l  o  w  i  n  g  d   o   w   n, there's not a worry today. all about are held hands, held bodies, smiling faces beaming shining emanating luminous brilliant energies.

we are all a witness to a permeation of a soul, the development of an affection, and the taming of an errant distraction.

left right left right left left right right, hopping, skipping, jumping forward with both feet, laughing out loud into the air adding the the spectrum of colors in the world. tears forming from a true elation, a pleasurable and sincere joy.

a belly aching with this accelerated blood pressure, with this quickening of breath, with this flexion of musculature, with this mad rush of oxygen into and through the tissues.

and then, a stillness.

a heat, then a soft breeze like music flowing through the streets, through the hollows, through the low grasses, through the heart.

tonight's homework:

eat healthy, spend ten minutes being silly, relax by a window or in the streets with a nice slow observational walk, cup of hot tea, read a book, dental hygiene, mental hygiene, the deepest of sleeps.

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" there's no wrong way to be "

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most days i am just happy to have a shape. there are so many stresses to just existing, why spend any time at all feeling less-than or undesirable?

there's no need for that, and whenever you feel the twinge of shame or inadequacy, note it, define it's point of origin, then let it dissipate and float away.

you are whole. you are the sun, moon, and stars. you are the heavens and the deep cool soil of the earth. you are the wide spectrum of visible and invisible light, whose beams hypnotize with it's unfathomable cascades of beauty. you are crystalline, multi-faceted, luminous, and bright.

you are the lovely dank of nighttime's bewildering darkness. you are the daylight in the daytime, and the moonbeams and their shadows in the night.

be proud, be open to the universe and invite everyone in to see your regal nature. there is no time left to waste on feel otherwise.

tonight's homework:

look at a photo of yourself, maybe one that you feel you don't look your best in. hold that photo in your hands and look at it. realize that for 98% of the time, we see ourselves in a mirror. this mirrored image informs most of the perception of ourselves.

remember this when you look at your true image, and know that that flipped discrepancy is one of the only things standing in the way of a true self-acceptance. you're beautiful in your uniqueness, your distinguishing features, and your most ill-perceived and supposed flaws.

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" more animal than mineral "

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with the unhurried pace of a long day extending, we find our stride.

all you need are good friends, open minds, a loose destination far enough into the future, that you are free to jazz improv your way from now until then.

no need to rush. no need to make haste, nor the desire to at any cost. this time is precious, jewel-like, crystalline.

we remain calm and in good spirits, as if all of the universe fits into these minutes, sealed in amber and made into a treasured memory.

tonight's homework:

make the time, then spend it wisely. it can either be fleeting or bend to your will. this is the manner in which we define our trajectory.

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