" holding on "

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time spans and the world twirls silently through outer space. we rest ourselves on the surface of the planet, chest down, face to the side. we're breathing in its breath, taking in it's energies, and riding its wavelengths.

i am alone on top of a wide ridge. the heaving cliffs descend before me, and the wind unfurls its long fingers upon my person. i'm crouching on the rocky formation thinking good thoughts.

there is a wild whipping whisper whistling past and into my ears, and i think about how i miss the quiet calm of a nighttime conversation in close proximity.

my thoughts turn to the sun, my heart turns to the moon. i'm resting on the crags and the shallow jutting contours. i'm thinking of you. i'm thinking of you. the winds die down for just a moment, before kicking up brusquely, and i'm on my way once again.

tonight's homework:

pull up good memories to the fore, to help you get through hard times. include others into and share your memories.

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" soul brush "

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cleaning my room after a couple months of things piling up.

leaves of papers fluttering just above the level of the low pile carpet. trinkets scattered here and there, placed just so. strategically laid out piles of clothing in various locations on the floor, none of them discernible separate piles of miscellaneous cloth.

 with some focus, calm, and a sense of purpose, i can see the finished scene in my mind. such intent, such clarity through optimistic glasses. i can see it.

eventually after 3 hours, dust bunnies were corralled, surfaces were cleared, apparel was organized, and the space opened up like a luminous blossom. there is great satisfaction and wisdom gained from spending the time.

your whole world can change in the span of a few hours. it up to you in which manner the change will manifest.

tonight's homework:

laugh out loud, so much and so loud, that they kick you out of the place.

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" second second chances "

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make a mistake, learn from it. try fail, try again. there's no shame in failure, only more chances at success.

to know that your best intent and misjudged distance could result in a scraped knee, shouldn't keep you from giving it your best shot. don't worry that there's something to lose.

what are we without some sense of loss, if not stronger in the heart, the constitution, and determination?

you never know what gold will become of the initial attempts at alchemy. it is in the trial and error where we find the inner-workings of all secrets.

there's always going to be something to lose. this is what makes giving it an honest go makes such a huge difference. because a win, however small, allows us the chance to reclaim ourselves, to fulfill the promise to ourselves to take care, be well, and thrive in the face of uncertainty.

tonight's homework:

if you don't succeed, try try again. do some stretches beforehand so you don't hurt yourself when you're kicking so much ass out there. i believe in you.

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" inventive paraboles "

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the absolute best thing you can do for yourself, is give yourself a break. the body reacts and stores up stresses in the muscles, in the sinews and tendons, in the bones and marrow.

if we keep our woes, alarms, sadness, and burdens tucked away between the cellular walls, we risk a lifetime of slow tension which strangles creativity, and stifles progress.

deep breaths, eating well and healthful, stretching it out, talking it out with people who are listening and care for you. these are the activities of healing.

dance! cook at home! be silly! sing songs! write songs! dare to be wrong, and don't be too proud to admit fault! learn from a mistake!

a plan to walk a path of calm and rejuvenation, can begin with a single thought, a single shift, and a single action. an acceptance of the impermanence all around us, sets you free from the worry of controlling everything.

things change, and that's fine. soon you will change, and thats fine as well. you've already changed.

tonight's homework:

let love into your heart, and reflect it back into the world tenfold.

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" how it dangles "

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the light seeps into my bedroom through the uncovered windows. the air lingers warm and low to the floor. this morning is the best morning because i have an opportunity to do good int he world.

every possibility, all choices, each determination and the total numerous paths which could be taken...lay within arm's length. 

show your loved ones your affections with actions, words, poetry, art, song, handmade cards, favors, and all manner of gifts. 

we make or decisions based on a vast amount of attributes, and it is in this morning that i've distilled them all down to simple actions, simple feelings. powerful singular motivations.

be good to everyone, and don't hold grudges.

cultivate creativity, and encourage it in others.

explore the world around you, and invite others to join in.

this is our one life on this go-around. our one at times complicated beyond belief and beautiful beyond measure life. you can sit by the wayside, peripheral to your life's events and happenings, or you can engage, permeate the storyline, and put your hand into the fire which burns.

tonight's homework:

say what you mean when you mean it. say what you feel when you feel it. 

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" attendance "

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solo visions of shadows warmed by beautiful soul music. the deft silence of an open theatre cut by searing, heartbreaking, and wrenchingly croons of vocals so lovely and melancholy, you are rendered still.

your heart stands still. your limbs seize up. your arms turn to putty, and all at once, you melt down to the floor, and seep into high pile.

all it takes is for you to show up when the moment arises. there's everything before and there's everything afterwards. and you walk through the world more whole than ever before perceived, and forever changed for the mightier.

tonight's homework:

buy the ticket, and stay for the whole show through to the credits.

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" your heart is a garnet "

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coordinates plotted, trajectory set, an we've given it our best guesstimate. this is not the only chance, but we're put in quite a lot of time and effort; if there were any other chances in this lifetime, this would be easily categorized as one of the best hopes.

liftoff eminent, eyes closed. planet's aligned in the soundless cosmos, and the humble heart, beats, steady and true.

vibrations from within the body circulate the lifeblood throughout coursing veins, and we find ourselves flush with the sheer joy of having a new opportunity in each day.

live. love. learn.

tonight's homework:

a high five to start the day, a hug to sustain positivity after lunch, and a long hand-hold for dessert, and a kiss to put you to sleep.

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" your mind is a diamond "

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in so many ways, this world fascinates. what avenues, what wonderment, what a sense of discovery in each day.

i saw a sunset today which, in each single moment becoming, and with every passing second, doubled in its beauty, tripled in its depths, and i kept looking up into the skies, my mind screaming in disbelief.

"what is this!? how is this possible!? will i ever see the like again1?"

and the truth is a resounding YES. there are so many amazing things to revel in, to belong with alongside of, to revere, to fall for.

places are like that. they sparkle in the distance, and gleam up close in stark relief. memories are like that. they remind us of times past, and lead us into the future.

people are like this. they come into and out of your life, and you'll always have to make every attempt to remember the lessons learned, the love shared, and how we helped one another deepen our conversation with a sense of the eternal.

tonight's homework:

take the time, take the time. be respectful of this everlasting moment.

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" escape routes "

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the walls are inching closer and i need to get out. unseen forces clamp down on my neck and there is an instantaneous migraine headache forming.

after vertigo and before the blacking out, i can see open spaces. wide vistas with sloping cliffs and vast plains covered with a dense greenery.

i can see a simpler life, a pared down existence where everything is close at hand, and most worldly distractions are kept at arm's length or further.

the floor meeting the full weight of my body signifies an abrupt awakening from this daydream. and yet, the vision lingers and floats in the front of my mind like wisp of smoke following a jolt from an electric shock.

tonight's homework:

discuss the details with a friend. plan accordingly. dress properly for the weather. bring snacks.

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" polishing a turd "

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we give praise out when it's warranted, when it's deserved. you cannot lift up a situation that is burdened with a complete lack of self-awareness. you can just lift up the spirits of people involved.

when you're faced with nearly impossible conditions and tasks at hand, there are a few things you can do.

  1. do your best with what you got.
  2. bury your head in the sand and wait it out.
  3. calmly eat snacks and smile at everyone, but not in a creepsy way.
  4. ask someone for help, but set your bar low at first.
  5. read the manual, twice.

there are forces out of your control, but you can still make every attempt to create an atmosphere of awareness, understanding, hopefulness, and ultimately lightheartedness.

we do not willingly need to accept the world as it is, believing it to be a rigid system, unshakable and without the capacity for change. there is great hope for us yet.

tonight's homework:

there are many opportunities left in your days, and your friends and colleagues will help you. remain open to all avenues, and double-check to see if you've brought the proper footwear.

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" pitter patter "

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ideas sometimes explode like a firecracker. thoughts scatter outward with violet eruption. one must embrace that sort of onslaught and ever be at the ready for unsmooth transitions. this is that chemical reaction which begins and ends with a jolt.

ideas sometimes gently pop into existence. thoughts lift their heads up from under the covers. one must be patient with the slow evolution of it all, and allow a natural shift from one thing to another to occur. this is that near-glacial sublimity which is a seed that sprouts, blossoms, and expands in due time.

tonight's homework:

always have a pen and paper handy.

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" concentric circles "

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the ripples in the waters rippling rippling.

the layers of a sweet red onion tears-inducing.

these sound waves emanating and how they sit so lovely in the shallows of my ears.

rays, radio signals, wifi, and all manner of pulses, both digital and analogue.

the mineral deposits of evaporation.

the years in the age of a tree.

could you find your way to the truth through these vibrations? through to the meat, the heart, the truths plural, the marrow?

you've been there before. we've been here before. it was you, it wasn't you. it was me, it wasn't me. 

we are constantly becoming more than we were mere minutes and moments ago. our experiences and trajectory compounds and resounds into the world.

tonight's homework:

watch out for the telltale signs, and heed the call once received. the time is always right for a personal reckoning.

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" in a crowd of strangers "

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who really is the strange one, when we are all strange?

we do good, we do bad, we do our best when we are faced with it all. life, real life is a waking dream at times, and a heavy burden at times.

you put your best Self forward, remain present and optimistic, focused and at the ready for moments to shine. and how brightly we all shine, sometimes alone, sometimes together.

when all of us are strangers, no one is a stranger. regard each other as your family member. take care to take care. remember compassion, remember empathy, remember your lowest lows and your darkest times. reflect, and renew your faith in one another.

we are all out here doing the very utmost, and the effort alone is encouraging and inspiring.

tonight's homework:

give yourself a break. you are really doing great, and we all need a chance to rest and collect ourselves.

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" the ole back and forth, up and down, in and out "

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whether finding my stride against the grain, or feeling whisked by by unseen forces, there seems to be a turmoil attempting reconciliation. i seem to be atilt, swerved off-axis, and free-floating through a space of an indeterminate destination. 

recently, most of our solar system's planets were in a curious alignment, mercury was/in in retrograde, el niño built up to our latest snowblizz action, it was a full moon, and i believe we felt it.

twisting, stretching, dancing, flexing all of the muscles in the body all at once to rid it of unease and restlessness.

i have a planner but no real game plan. just to do good by myself and others, to give and forgive, to love and be loved, to live and at times give myself up to the moment when it arrives, remains idle, and eventually fades out and away, soon to return.

tonight's homework:

gather your notes and papers, folders and records, scribblings and printouts. soon, you'll need everything to be in order.

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" flashes in the shadows "

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playing the long game now. no false starts, no sense of urgency. just urgently and actively mustering up the strength. mustering up the courage.

i tell myself over and over and over and over. the repetition almost does nothing. the fear does everything. it does its thing, and i always miss when i swing, i always waver when i sing, i always remember when it stings.

tonight's homework:

don't pray for an outcome. put in the work, fail again and again if you must, but get to it. start something. finish something, anything. anything at all.

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" i will always "

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nothing cuts quite as deep. 

falling towards, like in a deepest sleep.

i'm dreaming, i'm dreaming, i'm coming, i've arrived.

 

where there once was quick glances now i linger long and languid.

i reside in the embrace of your gaze.

i find myself short of breath and long of longing.

 

devoid of those initial obstacles, i have overcome,

and i will always find a way through to you.

tonight's homework:

make poetry on the page, make poetry in your life.

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" sun salutation "

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face it, you're a part of this universe. no need to deny it, or argue about it. it's just a living fact.

deal with it though right?

your molecules have touched all other molecules. your mitochondria has intermingled with all the bacteria. your atomic and subatomic structure has been around before the big bang, during the big bang, and well past then end of everything we know.

nebula, respiration, energy conversion, protostar, black hole.

remember how amazing everything is, and how you are an integral part of it all.

tonight's homework:

take a breath, take a break, recover, re-up. stay warm, share snacks.

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" square peg round circle "

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pride, joy, beauty, energy, solace.

a deeper understanding of the Self, of our surroundings, of our world.

we thrive in love and communication, song and sharing.

there is no fear of roads which outstretch beneath your feet; you're always yourself, in place, and properly seated on this planet.

tonight's homework:

learn a song in a different language than your own. respect it, and learn it's meaning.

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" a matter of memory "

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my fingers brushed along the lengthy fern leaves, taking some time to gently thumb the brown tips which were dry and crumbled under the soft pressure.

it was so still and quiet, all i remember was the whoosh of the breeze turning a corner around the corners, and fluttering about the koi ponds.

light footsteps meandered and echoed in the near-enclosed space. in the distance, bells chimed. in the distance, children laughed.

our eyes met full of life in a beautifully reverent place, and we without speaking a single word, made a promise intent on keep it.

tonight's homework:

don't just make wishes, make wishes come true.

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" the shape of learning "

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the more i look into the form moments take, it feels like a wide arc. or a bell curve with a standard deviation. we determine so much detail from our past experiences, that when it comes to current ones, you would think we would feel better prepared.

and some are for sure. doctors, firemen, clinicians, master thesis academics. but for the most of our lot, we rely on our animal instincts mixed with a little memory recall. 

even though sometimes, that sense of memory is blurry, malleable, fallible, twisted, or glanced over, it still holds weight. we still move forward to the best of our abilities, with the best of intentions, and hoping for the best of results.

tonight's homework:

don't be hard on yourself, its tough out there. don't be hard on others; everyone has a story to tell. do the very best that you can.

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