" into the everything of it all "


i am writing this to inform everyone i know, those who follow my social media posts, and my blogs, that i will be out of the country for five weeks. i apologize in advance for not being able to continue posting silly links, amazing photowalks, and polaroid dailies.

as some of my friends& colleagues know, i have been growing my hair long for the past 3-4 years. it's now almost three feet long, and for the most part consists of black, dark brown and a number of silver streaks. the most interesting part of growing the hair long has been how to take care of it, style it out, and find a non-strangling way to sleep on/with it. 

what most people don't know is that i've been growing my hair out as a reminder to myself that i have always planned on being ordained as a buddhist monk. the ceremony and duration of time as a thai buddhist monk will take place over a couple weeks near my family's province in thailand.  

as a part of the ordination, i will shave my head and face, as the buddha once did to symbolize your commitment and releasing you from a sense of vanity. also, you're not supposed to pluck your gray & white hairs out, because they show age and wisdom. so perhaps after it grows back, i'll be just a touch more salt and less pepper.

i had always thought] to become a monk ever since i was 12 for many different reasons, but never had a stronger one other than the interest until after my grandmother passed away a number of years ago. that event really brought to light a lot of thoughts about what is really important to me.

finding a truth in myself, finding a way to know my Self in such a way that i could make space to give to others my all without wanting anything in return. making merit in this life for myself, my parents, for those who have passed, and to define a serenity so that i may let go of a lot of grief, anger, doubt, fear, and selfishness. i think this experience is going to be pretty rad. 

so, please take care of yourselves and each other in the time i'm gone. i promise to answer all questions, share any photos i do take, and do my best to take care of business.

i'm going into the everything of it all by choice, facing forward with eager humility and openness, and ready for all that will come my way,  see you in october.