" the hushed silence "

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among the whispers and the joyous outbursts during the free outdoor screening, those who were alone in the crowd felt a sense of togetherness.

all people laughing in unison, nodding to the music, feeling all things, and the night lingered on beautifully whole.

tonight's homework:

take care of yourself, family & friends. we're all in this together, and need all the support we can get.

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 back to basics. taking into account all the lessons learned, all the time passing and how it accelerates. 
 not enough never enough to just feel the passing inspiration to photograph. the passion and fervor for its full expression must be tempered only by the clarity of thought to do it. 
 it’s all there right in front of you. whether it comes out or not, whether it’s a successful image or a failure, it is valid. it had a substance and a place in the world, and it is absolutely special. 
 textures, stitching, angles and lines meeting, the arcs, the rough and the lilt. it’s all there, again with the smallest most delectable details. just look! 
 you are never wasting your time seeking the sublime in the sunlight as well as in those supple shadows. 
 this is one attainable form of unyielding bliss. 
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back to basics. taking into account all the lessons learned, all the time passing and how it accelerates.

not enough never enough to just feel the passing inspiration to photograph. the passion and fervor for its full expression must be tempered only by the clarity of thought to do it.

it’s all there right in front of you. whether it comes out or not, whether it’s a successful image or a failure, it is valid. it had a substance and a place in the world, and it is absolutely special.

textures, stitching, angles and lines meeting, the arcs, the rough and the lilt. it’s all there, again with the smallest most delectable details. just look!

you are never wasting your time seeking the sublime in the sunlight as well as in those supple shadows.

this is one attainable form of unyielding bliss.

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 tonight’s homework: 
 make a formative and to the best of your abilities, a comprehensive list of all of the things, objects, people, and situations you love. 
 some on mine for example would be my parents, brother, family, friends, exes, collaborators, homemade pizzas, ramen, fried eggs, pancakes, wandering, curiosity-fueled explorations, kissing, hand-holding, sitting quietly, cinema/theatre/movie-watching, the opera, ice creams, driving short distances, road trips, traveling through a culture not my own, smelling new smells, tasting new tastes, swimming in the ocean, meeting strangers and becoming friends, gadgets, camera equipment, photo shoots, portraiture, thailand street food, paintings, museum spaces and the people who inhabit them albeit for brief and fleeting moments. 
 and much much more… 
 perhaps make this list and keep adding to it. your interests, your loves, your desires, your missions in life, your dreams. 
 having this list all the time, and at the ready is a great reminder to see later on, on those days where you find yourself unsure of yourself, unsure of your dreams & desires, and unsure of your path. 
 these listed items will not only serve as a base from which you may venture forth anew with a sense of renewed confidence, but as markers of what to look for to guide you in the future. 
 they may shift and change; altering the list may be painful at times, and at times very satisfying. but in the long run, you’ll end up feeling that at least at one time, you had an opinion about something. you felt very sure at one time that these were those things, objects, people, and situations you love. 
 you had a truth, you lived by them, and they gave you strength. 
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tonight’s homework:

make a formative and to the best of your abilities, a comprehensive list of all of the things, objects, people, and situations you love.

some on mine for example would be my parents, brother, family, friends, exes, collaborators, homemade pizzas, ramen, fried eggs, pancakes, wandering, curiosity-fueled explorations, kissing, hand-holding, sitting quietly, cinema/theatre/movie-watching, the opera, ice creams, driving short distances, road trips, traveling through a culture not my own, smelling new smells, tasting new tastes, swimming in the ocean, meeting strangers and becoming friends, gadgets, camera equipment, photo shoots, portraiture, thailand street food, paintings, museum spaces and the people who inhabit them albeit for brief and fleeting moments.

and much much more…

perhaps make this list and keep adding to it. your interests, your loves, your desires, your missions in life, your dreams.

having this list all the time, and at the ready is a great reminder to see later on, on those days where you find yourself unsure of yourself, unsure of your dreams & desires, and unsure of your path.

these listed items will not only serve as a base from which you may venture forth anew with a sense of renewed confidence, but as markers of what to look for to guide you in the future.

they may shift and change; altering the list may be painful at times, and at times very satisfying. but in the long run, you’ll end up feeling that at least at one time, you had an opinion about something. you felt very sure at one time that these were those things, objects, people, and situations you love.

you had a truth, you lived by them, and they gave you strength.

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 not very good on starting points. i can feel the urge and the desire to engage, but it’s really already happening by then innit? when did it begin? 
 maybe the lesson is to just forgo the beginnings, and just jump right in. find yourself in mid stride, halfway through the first third of a conversation’s worth of confidence, knee-deep in it. 
 just be there, like a projection of the mind already in the real world. it’s not enough to be in the moment, but you have to be in your moment. someone else’s moment will only give you a skewed perspective. 
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not very good on starting points. i can feel the urge and the desire to engage, but it’s really already happening by then innit? when did it begin?

maybe the lesson is to just forgo the beginnings, and just jump right in. find yourself in mid stride, halfway through the first third of a conversation’s worth of confidence, knee-deep in it.

just be there, like a projection of the mind already in the real world. it’s not enough to be in the moment, but you have to be in your moment. someone else’s moment will only give you a skewed perspective.

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 after 6 hours 20 mins of a valentine’s day screening of matthew barney’s latest artfilm, “ rivers of fundament ,” we take one calm moment and remember that despite seeing every secretion, excrement, saliva, fluid, plasma, orifice musculature, and lubrication of the human body, we are still making plans to watch more movies. ha. 
 what a test of the defiance of personal limits, both cinematic and physically having to sit in semi-comfy chairs, and artfilm detractors. 
 i hope that you had a great friday, irregardless of hallmark’s hold on our collective global culture or not. 
 exploration! adventure! filmmaking! winter! hibernation! 
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after 6 hours 20 mins of a valentine’s day screening of matthew barney’s latest artfilm, “rivers of fundament,” we take one calm moment and remember that despite seeing every secretion, excrement, saliva, fluid, plasma, orifice musculature, and lubrication of the human body, we are still making plans to watch more movies. ha.

what a test of the defiance of personal limits, both cinematic and physically having to sit in semi-comfy chairs, and artfilm detractors.

i hope that you had a great friday, irregardless of hallmark’s hold on our collective global culture or not.

exploration! adventure! filmmaking! winter! hibernation!

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 director spike jonze introduces his newest work, “ her " starring joaquin phoenix & the voice talent of scarjo. 
 really powerful themes of near-future technologically and how it influences social norms via interaction/usage/integration into our lives, notions of romance, nostalgia, pining, and the general search for happiness. 
 lovely lovely film. peep it out when it releases. 
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director spike jonze introduces his newest work, “her" starring joaquin phoenix & the voice talent of scarjo.

really powerful themes of near-future technologically and how it influences social norms via interaction/usage/integration into our lives, notions of romance, nostalgia, pining, and the general search for happiness.

lovely lovely film. peep it out when it releases.

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