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 you have to want it so bad, more than anything else, and will it into existence. from the heart up through the brain-stem to the senses to the skin to the meat & musculature to the bones. 
 if it’s anything i’ve learned from the entirety of my life thus far, it’s that there is not the sort of magic that you believed in as a child. the whole of growing up and through to early adolescence leads up to the eventual realization that there are no easy answers. 
 everything is amazingly complex and multifaceted, filled with nuances and intimate delicacy. how i’ve been so confident in my youth, and at present feel very strong that i alone am the one that must put the effort into it all, or nothing will come of all those desires and dreams. 
 you are owed nothing, and there are no absolutes. it’s all the gray area in between, thick like a fog of your own device. how it lifts and clears in entirely up to you. 
 and if you have a belief in me and mines, i will have a belief in you and yours. 
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you have to want it so bad, more than anything else, and will it into existence. from the heart up through the brain-stem to the senses to the skin to the meat & musculature to the bones.

if it’s anything i’ve learned from the entirety of my life thus far, it’s that there is not the sort of magic that you believed in as a child. the whole of growing up and through to early adolescence leads up to the eventual realization that there are no easy answers.

everything is amazingly complex and multifaceted, filled with nuances and intimate delicacy. how i’ve been so confident in my youth, and at present feel very strong that i alone am the one that must put the effort into it all, or nothing will come of all those desires and dreams.

you are owed nothing, and there are no absolutes. it’s all the gray area in between, thick like a fog of your own device. how it lifts and clears in entirely up to you.

and if you have a belief in me and mines, i will have a belief in you and yours.

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we keep our heads above the waters, bobbing and treading as waves lull and roil about in this ocean of unknowns.

we’re doing the best we can, and non one will ever know how it feels. the most we can do is empathize and promise to take care of the business at hand at the time, in the moment, on the day, in due time.

we are meeting each other in the existing spaces, and can only find the words if the words come. sometimes we talk for hours and have meaningful exchanges.

sometimes we sit in the silence of each others company, need no words, and have meaningful exchanges.

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 going into those dark places where flickering eyes shine in the shadows, we find that our fears and hesitations mistake laughter for menace. 
 nothing is as it seems at all times, and it behooves us as good people to be vigilant of our own interpretations. 
 everything in moderation, whether it be beers & spirits, anxiety & unease, or just misreading the dark dank corners. it’s always better to focus on the deep beauty of a curious observation, then move on. 
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going into those dark places where flickering eyes shine in the shadows, we find that our fears and hesitations mistake laughter for menace.

nothing is as it seems at all times, and it behooves us as good people to be vigilant of our own interpretations.

everything in moderation, whether it be beers & spirits, anxiety & unease, or just misreading the dark dank corners. it’s always better to focus on the deep beauty of a curious observation, then move on.

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