" sketches, just sketches: a dream "

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classroom apocalypse. slug sushi. james.

samurai time warp. hiding spots, ninjas. backpack, beanie.

killed a man with a katana. broke his finger, he had a gun. friends wife in the room.

thai school event. hotel hi-so guests. itchy kimono. trying to tune a nylon string instrument.

food court confusion.

tonight's homework:

begin a dream journal. it doesn't have to be extensive, each night, or even well kept up. it just needs to be the best recount of the details and storyline you can remember. i usually have a google doc ready to go when i wake up or a notepad by the bed or make a dictated voice memo on my phone when i awaken. it's a weird practice that if done ever so often, provides a real (and at time funny) source of insight into your dream and waking life.

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" some summer happenstance "

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riding your bicycle home in the evening, the trees lining the inner looped roadway in the park creating the loveliest thoroughfare. warm winds caress your ears, face, neck, shoulders, and all the way down to the dimples of your ankles.

the doppler effect of feet meeting pavement as you float past runners slowly shifts into the brassy long tones of sung melancholy.

beautiful melodies counterpoised with slow steady deliberate music glide upon an errant gale, curls itself into the architecture of your ears, and nestles inside of your bones. the amplified sounds grow closer as you approach, the echoes of which reverberate throughout your skeleton and you feel all blue colors of the night.

peering through a gated fence, nothing can shut out the long reach of this music; it's lengthy slender fingers slipping through the braided diamonds, and holds the weight of your head in its comforting palms.

everything is stillness and invisible wavelengths. your heart goes electric and in that moment, you feel everything.

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" from a slice of all time "

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i have to remind myself to remind myself to not put all my focus on one thing or person or situation. to be that myopic gives me tunnel-vision, and i find it really hard to unlatch.

when i get into cleaning my desk at home, it turns into half-cleaning/half-reminiscing and then i get the cleaning-itch and begin to clean my floor, room, hallway, apartment. it's good to be detail-oriented, but i get lost.

the hours pass, the day wanes, the sun sets behind the buildings, behind the horizon, and it becomes nighttime becomes twilight becomes dawn. time is ceaseless until our time in this life is over, so i need to remember to take that time i have now and even it all out.

so, gone thieves of activity time, good riddance burglars of multitasking, and fare thee well appropriators of socializing. as always it is nice to have you over in small increments, but i've things to do.

thank you of your company, i've now things to do.

tonight's homework:

you are great! you are valid! you have every potential to accomplish tasks great and minuscule! shelf a mania and explore a newfound interest or activity. expand your world in metered steps.

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" to the time spent wisely "

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as you find yourself at a moment of transition, one begins to realize all of the many things you did, people you've met and grown to love, or loved and lost. we always expect that things will turn out, that they happen for a reason, and that reason is a good one.

friendships flourish under strenuous tests of patience, distance, planning, and life just happening the way it happens. we can almost not take too much credit for the active chaos constantly swirling and whipping about our daily activities.

it's better yet to observe those beautifully meaningful passages of time where you were seen, where you were heard, and where something profound was exchanged, perhaps even if it were the most simple phrase which turned strangers into family.

or was it a single whisper. or was it a shared silence.

we live our lives to the best of our ability, love to the fullest & highest capacity our bodies and hearts may muster. we live for truths, honesty, bravery, kinship, understanding, patience, beauty, delight, joy, and love.

we've had the loveliest time, this time, and in the time we shared, not one moment was i ever ill-prepared for your departure from this city. but i am not surprised or hurt. only the aches and pains of a friend increasing the level of negative proximity, which in this case is parallel to an ever-expanding sense of pride and happiness for your future adventuring.

we go with you in spirit where our bodies may not follow, and in the final days, hours, minutes, seconds, remind you that you were here. you were loved. you made a difference. and you will be missed.

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" the best impromptu idea of the day "

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"meet me in the park," and time stood still. the stars aligned, cardinals flew past, and the sun hung long and low, golden and perfect. all the trees swayed gently in the deep afternoon, while we spread out the wood and coals in the BBQ pit.

no worries left, no stresses or pressing matters to attend to. nothing but sheer blisses and friendship blossoming in that lovely conversational time between arrival and grilled chicken sandwich.

this was how the universe was supposed to be; spending time with loved ones, cooking food out of doors, talking, hiding beer consumption for the police, and riding the day out in a manner of our own choosing. simplicity and summer joys!

excelsior!

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" the three graces "

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remember to find some time to play. play is very important in life, and this cannot be understated.

in play you find a release of endorphins, and a lowering of self-consciousness through a flexing of creativity. you find a safe place to find your Self, explore roles, situations, and delve into the inner recesses of imagination before unleashing all that energy out into the world. there's such a flourish of beauty which transcends fears and embarrassment with elation, joy, and ceaseless fun.

it's so integral to building confidence, strength, shaping a sense of wonderment, glee, and one of those beautiful activities which will completely set you free.

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 dear followers,   happy new year to all!   the fact that we all made it here, now, and in this moment, means that whatever hardships we faced, we got through them and are actively stating, “we can strive for better, we can heal, move forward, we are valid, we are a force to behold.”   in this very spirit, i would like to both welcome you to 2014, and thank you so very much for all the support in the past year. i most definitely felt a great broad stroke forward in my creative output, and would love to think that this stride will continue to strengthen in this new year.   this being said, i would like to put out a call for participants & collaborators for continued and new projects. when you have a desire to create something, sometimes you have to ask for help, and rather than be stoic and proud solely in my singular accomplishments, i work much happier with others.   if you or someone you know are interested & in the nyc area, please contact me with no hesitation: 
   the adorned body : looking forward to closing out this tremendously fulfilling project and put it to a lovely rest. i am looking for a handful of familiars and strangers to sit for me, be interviewed, and have their voices heard. (nudes, M/F/TG & everything in between, all appropriate ages, signed release) 
    cape cloak cowl : a diptych series about perceptions of conformity and the deeper truths of individuality, personality, and emotional states. (semi-nudes, M/F/TG & everything in between, all appropriate ages, signed release) 
    portraiture  &  nudes sessions , tailored, collaborative, and varied mediums. looking to set aside our daily lives for a second, and build a series of images where personality meshes with reality & the perception of fantasy. (nudes & clothed, M/F/TG & everything in between, all appropriate ages, signed release) 
   more to come! mini-zines! adventures! photowalks! 
  and as always, many many thanks to all. please  feel free to contact me  with your information on participation, leads to other collaborators, questions, comments, and any other suggestions and ideas! 
 c. bay 
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dear followers,

happy new year to all!

the fact that we all made it here, now, and in this moment, means that whatever hardships we faced, we got through them and are actively stating, “we can strive for better, we can heal, move forward, we are valid, we are a force to behold.”

in this very spirit, i would like to both welcome you to 2014, and thank you so very much for all the support in the past year. i most definitely felt a great broad stroke forward in my creative output, and would love to think that this stride will continue to strengthen in this new year.

this being said, i would like to put out a call for participants & collaborators for continued and new projects. when you have a desire to create something, sometimes you have to ask for help, and rather than be stoic and proud solely in my singular accomplishments, i work much happier with others.

if you or someone you know are interested & in the nyc area, please contact me with no hesitation:

  • the adorned body: looking forward to closing out this tremendously fulfilling project and put it to a lovely rest. i am looking for a handful of familiars and strangers to sit for me, be interviewed, and have their voices heard. (nudes, M/F/TG & everything in between, all appropriate ages, signed release)
  • cape cloak cowl: a diptych series about perceptions of conformity and the deeper truths of individuality, personality, and emotional states. (semi-nudes, M/F/TG & everything in between, all appropriate ages, signed release)
  • portraiture & nudes sessions, tailored, collaborative, and varied mediums. looking to set aside our daily lives for a second, and build a series of images where personality meshes with reality & the perception of fantasy. (nudes & clothed, M/F/TG & everything in between, all appropriate ages, signed release)
  • more to come! mini-zines! adventures! photowalks!

and as always, many many thanks to all. please feel free to contact me with your information on participation, leads to other collaborators, questions, comments, and any other suggestions and ideas!

c. bay

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" NYE " 2 0 1 3 " (the "i edit very slow" edition)

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a 1st day of the year editing session yields a piece that i completely meant to finish on the same day A YEAR AGO!

haha, so i suppose the lesson, if i wanted to self-impose one onto myself with no deadlines except the ones you implement for yourself, is that if you dedicate yourself to finishing something…you could totally do it in a few hours.

or in the least get organized and begin a project. what was  i waiting for?

so, hopefully it’s still relevant, and interesting as a reflective short. i still cannot believe it took me a whole year to do it, and this has become the best example of a procrastination-last-minute-hail-mary-cram-session everrrrrrrr,

enjoy, and happy new year.

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