" the best the best "

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smile like the breaking of a new day. warm, enveloping, golden and full, pure and brilliant.

smile so your soul beams and glows outward; concentric heat waves emanating from your marrow out into the universe.

you affect molecules and matter, people and neighborhoods, cities and atmosphere, the planet itself, the galaxy.

you soar and expand into the solar winds, and ride the blissful contentment past the stars and into the depths unknown.

tonight's homework:

feel it, be it, do it, sleep at a reasonable hour, dream dream dream.

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" the end of things is the beginning "

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sometimes the good news is bad news while bad news is still bad news, screaming is pleasurable though you go hoarse, crying is happiness and your guts ache with joy, cuts are thrilling though the thrill is breif, pain is exhilerating while a soft touch excruciating. 

we revel in this gray area emotional wonderland of reality and fantasy mashing all the best parts together. if there a true sense of happiness without the somber, or a sense of the self without the sense of mortality? how can you know a true contentment until you know where the parameters of the spectrum are?

i am the interconnected three-dimensional venn diagram with so may shaded-in areas, who could help but notice the Self that i am. my certain flavor is so complex, some do not know how to react; am i a relief or a menace?

sometimes the end of things are the beginning, and we've nothing to do but ponder, meet it at the gates, allow it in, and deal with the crossing of the line. too many things intersect at the same time to think of anything as a straight line. so take a moment, and feel free to move on.

tonight's homework:

ake some time to reevaluate your true interests. are they safe? are they detrimental? do they make you proud? would the continuation of them make your parents blush? have a think upon your base motivations, and see where that line of thought takes you. i bet more than anything, you'll rediscover that you may have been correct about yourself all along, and that nothing at all is wrong with anything.

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" break down to build up "

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there's so much, there's so much. how to make it all organized and manageable, and is that even the point? can we exist amidst the tiny chaos of everyday?

films, pop culture, sickness, food trends, local news, international news, friends, family, cleanliness, arts & mixed media, attending musical events, learning how to dance, people-watching, karaoke, bike rides, dating, clothing choices, toothpaste with or without tartar control, airplane travel versus train travel, it's so much, and endless.

it's enough to know it all exists, and to recognize that it all exists, there is a great relief off the shoulders. there is no rush to have to understand it all. it's going to be there if you want it to or not. stop writing, shower, go to sleep.wake up tomorrow and give it your best go of it.

tonight's homework:

it's alright to be overwhelmed. we're basically on the craziest spaceship ever right now. take a rest, regroup, and i'll see you tomorrow.

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