" no faith in fate "

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you get what you get, and no take-backsies. revel in your choices, and perhaps too the way in which you lean towards or shrink away from those situations, people, and objects you come across.

almost nothing is fate, and almost nothing is luck. but mostly everything is the way it happens because it's the way it happens. it's not glorified, but it's pure and honest. there is beauty in that simplicity.

painfully lovely melancholy in the most minimalist moments. this is the distillation of the eternal experience, and we are all within it, around it, and creators of it.

tonight's homework:

make a slight inspection of your more complex patterns, and seek to streamline the more cross-wired ones.

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" when you wear the best fit of the day "

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invincibility as a construct is a difficult state to maintain. no matter how invulnerable we feel, our skin is still exposed to the world.

but a complete fit can be that armor to deflect all manner of hesitation. you can find yourself amidst naysayers or judgmental people, and render yourself immediately devoid of harm.

when you wear the best fit of the day, people take heed, and you have soul-fangs. one thing less is the matter, and you can walk tall, proud, confident, beaming, glowing, radiating.

i suppose i am still working on a complete best fit of the day, but i'm getting there piece by piece.

tonight's homework:

make yourself feel better for the benefit of yourself. things are always looking up.

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" top of a small mountain is still a mountain "

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above the ground, above the world, below the sky.

feet planted firmly and feeling powerful with the wind in your face and the strength of generations flowing through you.

all the pains ebbed, the ire depleted, the sadness vanquished. you stand on top of a small mountain and survey the future.

everything possible, loves in your life, delicious foods, your body running full throttle hurtling into every amazing experience after another, never stopping, never letting up.

then a quiet moment of reflection and a held breath exhaled.

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" how it all happens "

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suddenly everything goes quiet, like the world's massive hands are cupped against your body. everything goes black and serene as only high frequencies lit and flutter above the vibrations.

this is how it all happens. and the universe expands into a million points of light making up the visual spectrum of all things.

your heart glows and the blood rushes. al sounds begin to layer and overlap until you hear everything, feel everything, and your skin is alive with the sensation of diamond particles.

there is no more platforms to stand on, just the realization that we are in motion and grounded by gravity. you sit in the presence of a reality between all realities. happiness expands like gentle waves lapping calm shores.

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" ladies first "

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when someone is kind enough to sit for you, one of the very first things you must remember to do is thank them. it's so simple and easy to extend. you must remember that you are choosing a profession (or dedicated hobby) which demands that you respect your subjects, whether they be people, or nature, or the streets, or animals. a healthy ever-present sign of thanks and respect will carry a lot of positive weight.

i feel very lucky to have had the opportunity to approach and photograph so many interesting people. in each session, whether split-second streetography or longer dedicated shoot, i have been blessed to have had the access to learn about what makes people so curious and magnetic.

when someone invites you into their world, you must care for them as much as if they were your beloved family. we're here for so brief of a time, that there is no need to waste any precious moment. it's not enough to merely be good at your craft, you must strive to be exceptional, and then extend your hard work ethic beyond being merely great.

it does your subjects no justice to half-ass anything. the mood can be light and fun, but the craft, the skills, and your demeanor must always have the skeletal structure of professionalism and focus.

so remember to ask people to sit for you, thank them and be a pro. these are the moments which will make each day infinitely better and better. and on and on.

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platformmag : 
 
 PLATFORM’s Issue 08 is now live at  www.platform-mag.co.uk ! Check it out and share it about! :) 
 
 —- 
  very pleased to share a spread & ‘interview’ from “the adorned body” work-in-progress project featured in this online UK mag.     (pg. 112-123)  
  big ups to  platformmag  for the inclusion!  
 here below is the unedited questionnaire i filled out, because i suppose i rarely think about it, but it’s nice to be reminded that i have an opinion: 

  

 
   Full name:   
   c. bay milin   

   Age:   

   34   

   Where are you from?   

   albany, california, usa   

   Where do you live?   

   brooklyn, ny, usa   

   What camera/cameras do you use?   

    nikon D4 DSLR    
   minolta autocord LMX TLR   
   nikon fm3a   
   polaroid land camera automatic 250   
   polaroid cool cam 600   
   holga colorsplash   
   Tell us a little bit about yourself. What do you do/study? Or what do you want to do?   

   working photog with a day job. love to walk around city streets, peer around corners, immerse myself in as much nature as possible, and swim in oceans. i’m not in school anymore, but i like to study human nature and the state of my sense of hesitation. i love to find or create opportunities to flex my sense of bravery.   

   Tell us a little about your photography. Why do you shoot? When did you start? What is your favorite thing to taken pictures of? Etc   

   i love to photograph people and the world around me. i’m not sure that it can be more concise than that, but it’s my truth; i love to take photographs of all the things which catch your eye.   
    everything and everyone is so interesting and alluring, fantastic and grotesque, lovely and profane. there is a poetry to the way it all evolves, and at times i cannot help but to observe and then lift that camera to my eye in an involuntary compulsion. it is a controlled madness of mathematics and emotional consumption.     i received a camera from my parents when i was around 8; it was a DISC camera, and i remember really being excited at the prospect of photographing elephant seals on the beach. they were so enormous and scary, and i was too far away to get a great shot. i think that each camera i have been gifted or bought and used since then, had echoed the want to perfect that first desire to document.     my work meanders between people and places/spaces, but i feel like i get the most satisfaction when spending time with a person in their home, and collaborating on a series of portraits stemming from a loose idea. more and more these days, my nudes especially are most gratifying because as long as we have known our bodies as a species, we can still find it shocking, elegant, and every attribute in between. there’s something great about happening upon new angles, which both elates and create a sense of wonderment.  
   Which photographers/artists inspire you?   

   gordon parks   
   paolo roversi   
   ellen von unwerth   
   eudora welty   
   steve mccurry   
   sally mann   
   vivian maier   
   yousuf karsh   
  anyone who is actively trying to figure it out through photography.  
    Contact details:   
  Email:  bay@cbaymilin.com   

  Website (if you have one) :       http://cbaymilin.com     
  Blog/social media sites:   
     http://cbaymilin.tumblr.com     

     http://facebook.com/cbaymilin     
     http://instagram.com/baystar23     
     http://vimeo.com/cbaymilin     
     http://be.net/cbaymilin     
   And finally, please complete the following with as little or as many words as you see fit (as long as it remains under a page long):   
   Photography is….   
  ceaseless joyful frustration coupled with blissful discovery  
 
 —-  
  very cool things. pass it around.  
  —-

platformmag:

PLATFORM’s Issue 08 is now live at www.platform-mag.co.uk! Check it out and share it about! :)

—-

very pleased to share a spread & ‘interview’ from “the adorned body” work-in-progress project featured in this online UK mag. (pg. 112-123)

big ups to platformmag for the inclusion!

here below is the unedited questionnaire i filled out, because i suppose i rarely think about it, but it’s nice to be reminded that i have an opinion:

Full name:

c. bay milin

Age:

34

Where are you from?

albany, california, usa

Where do you live?

brooklyn, ny, usa

What camera/cameras do you use?

nikon D4 DSLR

minolta autocord LMX TLR

nikon fm3a

polaroid land camera automatic 250

polaroid cool cam 600

holga colorsplash

Tell us a little bit about yourself. What do you do/study? Or what do you want to do?

working photog with a day job. love to walk around city streets, peer around corners, immerse myself in as much nature as possible, and swim in oceans. i’m not in school anymore, but i like to study human nature and the state of my sense of hesitation. i love to find or create opportunities to flex my sense of bravery.

Tell us a little about your photography. Why do you shoot? When did you start? What is your favorite thing to taken pictures of? Etc

i love to photograph people and the world around me. i’m not sure that it can be more concise than that, but it’s my truth; i love to take photographs of all the things which catch your eye.


everything and everyone is so interesting and alluring, fantastic and grotesque, lovely and profane. there is a poetry to the way it all evolves, and at times i cannot help but to observe and then lift that camera to my eye in an involuntary compulsion. it is a controlled madness of mathematics and emotional consumption.

i received a camera from my parents when i was around 8; it was a DISC camera, and i remember really being excited at the prospect of photographing elephant seals on the beach. they were so enormous and scary, and i was too far away to get a great shot. i think that each camera i have been gifted or bought and used since then, had echoed the want to perfect that first desire to document.

my work meanders between people and places/spaces, but i feel like i get the most satisfaction when spending time with a person in their home, and collaborating on a series of portraits stemming from a loose idea. more and more these days, my nudes especially are most gratifying because as long as we have known our bodies as a species, we can still find it shocking, elegant, and every attribute in between. there’s something great about happening upon new angles, which both elates and create a sense of wonderment.

Which photographers/artists inspire you?

gordon parks

paolo roversi

ellen von unwerth

eudora welty

steve mccurry

sally mann

vivian maier

yousuf karsh

anyone who is actively trying to figure it out through photography.

 Contact details:

Email: bay@cbaymilin.com

Website (if you have one): http://cbaymilin.com

Blog/social media sites:

http://cbaymilin.tumblr.com

http://facebook.com/cbaymilin

http://instagram.com/baystar23

http://vimeo.com/cbaymilin

http://be.net/cbaymilin

And finally, please complete the following with as little or as many words as you see fit (as long as it remains under a page long):

Photography is….

ceaseless joyful frustration coupled with blissful discovery

—- 

very cool things. pass it around.

—-

—- 
 you’re leaning on a back railing on your fire escape. your great friend and collaborator is giving you gilded daggers out from her eyes, and for some reason, that’s exactly what you were looking for. 
 the winds are soft and temperate, and it’s the first day of winter. your shot is made, and she climbs back through the kitchen window. and then you follow, daggers still intact. 
 everything is great, and saturday has begun to come together nicely. 
 —-

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you’re leaning on a back railing on your fire escape. your great friend and collaborator is giving you gilded daggers out from her eyes, and for some reason, that’s exactly what you were looking for.

the winds are soft and temperate, and it’s the first day of winter. your shot is made, and she climbs back through the kitchen window. and then you follow, daggers still intact.

everything is great, and saturday has begun to come together nicely.

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